‘I Hide My Troubles Behind My Smile…’ Last Words Of College Student Before Suicide

The late Monny Muthoni’s happiest day on earth was when she turned 17 years old. She was super ecstatic that she took to her social media and posted, “My best day in life.”

This was 8 years ago.

After that, life was not kind to her and all her posts were a cry for help that everyone seemed to have missed up to the point where she took her own life on May 12, 2022.

College Student Commits Suicide

Before she took her life she really fought to stay alive, on her Facebook page, she repeatedly posted,

“The sun will rise tomorrow and we will try again.”

It seems like she really, really tried to fight her demons and face each day at a time.

However, on May 12 at 9:35 pm, she posted two alarming messages that read.

“Dear World, I am leaving because I am bored, I feel I have lived long enough. I am leaving you with your worries in this sweet cesspool. I tried. No more pains. Wake no more. Nobody owns [knows]”


“I am going to put myself to sleep now for a bit longer than usual. Call time eternity…I”

The message is left hanging and unfinished, we will never know what she wanted to say.

Monny left a lot of hints about her mental status. She also wrote about the death of someone she calls her twin sister.

Monny paid tribute to her on May 15, 2017, saying,

“Having spent a night in the same bed with u siz, I neva knew that would b the last night I would spent with u. I neva knew the prayers we prayed togetha was our last prayers with u on earth…u was, my joy, happiness and the reason I smiled mama….why have u gone so soon? But of all may ur soul rest in peace…I can neva forget the moments we spent togetha on the last day….in heart u will always remain….I will neva enjoy life as I enjoyed with u…R.I.P.”

Things got worse for Monny. She even pointed out that

“Everyone may hate mi BUT for myself dat [that] is the first and the last nail to my tomb…wat a sabbath it was…”


“Behind my smile, there is always a sad story you would neva adastad [understand]…merry Christmas.”

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