Singer Avril tells us why her pregnancy has made her question God.
Avril came out to talk about her first pregnancy especially when she was almost due. She came out to explain her decision to keep her pregnancy a top secret.
Avril explained that she wanted better control in managing the news about the pregnancy. She explained that she was not going to bow down to pressure and would do things at her own time.
Here’s what she posted:
IT WAS GOING TO BE IN MY TIME, MY TERMS NEVER ANYONE ELSE…
Speaking in a recent interview with Adelle Onyango on her podcast Legally Clueless, Avril has opened up details about her pregnancy journey.
Saying that although she had wished to get a baby, she was afraid to learn that she was pregnant.
She said:
I WASN’T VERY SURE WHAT WAS HAPPENING AS I WAS CONSTANTLY TIRED. I WANTED TO GO THROUGH THE TEST BY MYSELF AND GET THE EMOTIONS BY MYSELF, I DON’T KNOW WHY BUT WHENEVER I FIND MYSELF IN A SITUATION THAT REQUIRES ME TO BE VENERABLE. ALTHOUGH I WANTED TO BE A MOM, I WAS LIKE, AM I GOING TO BE A MUM, HOW AM I GOING TO BALANCE THIS? THERE WERE SO MANY QUESTIONS THAT I EVEN QUESTIONED GOD.
She said she told God that there were conditions for me to be a mum.
She wanted to have the test by herself.
THE FATHER TO MY CHILD, LEFT THE HOUSE WENT GOT A KIT AND HE DIDN’T TELL ME.
I WAS CONFUSED, AND I DIDN’T KNOW WHAT TO DO, WE HAD BEEN TOGETHER FOR QUITE A WHILE, BUT I WAS FEELING LIKE I AM NOT SURE I AM AT THE SPACE ESPECIALLY BECAUSE OF MY CAREER.
She added that her career had just started picking.
THIS IS THE TIME I WAS DOING INTERNATIONAL COLLABOS. I WAS THINKING ABOUT MYSELF. I DIDN’T THINK ABOUT MY PARTNER, HERE IS SOMEONE WHO HAS COMMITTED TO YOU AND HAS SAID HE WANNA DO THIS TOGETHER.
Avril has always kept her baby private until recent when she revealed the first photo of her baby on social media.
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(H/T Mpasho)